13.33 on 11.25

Yea... hi. Sam's over, its been very interesting texting on her phone... last night she fell asleep while i was texting Zac for almost two hours... *claps hands* I should be doing my Social Studies but I can't seem to focus on it... than me and Sam need to do the Character Sketch... *sigh* so much to do and so little time!

18.56 on 11.23

Yea... so finally back from South Jersey, Delaware, and Pennsylvania... Started my memoir, but need more facts from my P2P buddies, started my short story and its so emotional I dont know if I can do it, tried starting my play critique but I lost the program and now my mum is going to be soooo pissed.
Day after Thanksgiving, aka the day I start blaring christmas music in my ears and through the house! YAY! And I am now obsessed by Carol of the Bells, I love it!
Hope you all had a happy thanksgiving!

13.59 on 11.21

Hello, Can you believe that Thanksgiving is TOMORROW?!?!?!? Amazing... The year is going so fast... maybe I won't have to wait that long until tenth grade!!!! *brigtens* though I may have just ruined the chances again... This is why I never say what is really on my mind, it ruins everything, and makes it above all, AKWARD! *wince* I'll go write something for Writer's Workshop.

20.38 on 11.18

I'm completely hyped! I tHINK I CAN DOOOO THIS! WAHOO! I'll post again when I'm done! than again, that might be tomorrow... so see you around all!

15.55 on 11.15

Yep... Sigh... I really need to go to bed... NOW! I only got 2 hours of sleep last night... And I still didn't finish my project... I need to do writer's workshop, and finish this stupid character sketch... though today I got a great compliment from Mr. Sharp, he said I had a higher work ethic than most college students, I was completly taken off gaurd!

Update

Just realized something..... It would be of great help if you post... I dont care if you use the "Anonymous" setting... just please put your name somewhere in the post so I know how to respond... Thanks so much

19.36 on 11.12

I wonder if absolutly anyone reads this friggin blog anymore... absolutly nooooo input! Then again? why should I even care? I was doing this like another diary that my parents don't know about.
I almost started crying in orchestra, Sam said he was staring at me. Really, I just want him to forget. It's better than it was after Gage... but somehow I still feel kinda empty... I still need to read through what we said on AIM to find a story idea he had. Unfortunatly I swore to myself I would finish it... and it's trudging up some sucky memories.
I should start writing again, but it feels as if I have writer's block. I refuse to let it happen that I can only write when I'm dating someone. I'm not leaving that main component of myself to another human being, it has to be all me.
Well I supose I shall go mope and read those AIM conversations which will leave me torn, and than try to resist against this acursed writer's block. Au revoir my dear friends.

21.04 on 11.07

I kicked myself out of the ball park... it's all over... and the shameful thing is I ended it with "It's over" (me) "Okay" (Matt). And now I'm having the best conversation with him since fifth grade. Over. Such a cruel, short explanation, all crammed into a four letter word. Now I am going to refuse to date until tenth grade. I am sorry to anyone out there, though I doubt it, who may have feelings for me, I am not gonna put my heart on my sleeve or on the line again. If you love me enough, trust me, you can wait... I have waited before, you can too. Now we have a four day weekend. Yippee. Let's hope I don't doubt myself. Then again I always do that anyway. Ta Ta For Now. Call me on my cell, I'm lonely and need consolation.

15.38 on 11.5

Yea... newsflash... if I was a guy I would be six foot two, not five foot nine. Pathetic.
After this I get to dive into my ton of homework, practice insanely for my challenge, and than run a mile around my house.... that is pathetic too. *sigh*
Life is useless... at the moment Zach is trying to tell me that I'm the strongest person he's met... bull shit... I'm a wuss and a weakling... someone post if any of you have objections!

16.39 on 11.1

Yes... so much to talk of...
Halloween was last night... disappointing is the one word I have for you... Matt didn't "look" at me during lunch... he was doing homework. I trick-or-treated with Sara and Sam. Zach's dog was feeling pain so he was at the vet the whole night. And Matt went trick-or-treating with the guys from his neighborhood. So let's say I was a little pissed at him, so now he is not sitting with me at lunch until Monday. And tomorrow is MY BIRTHDAY!!!! But I can't break up with him. I felt SO bad at lunch... It wasn't as bad as Gage... but I knew we hadn't broken up... I can't live without you Matt. I'm sorry if you don't want that...
Tomorrow at 0609 I will turn... wowers... 307... (aka 14)... And I'm having my People to People friends over for a sleepover... we are seeing the ballet of DRACULA at the academy of music in Philly. 14 oh God...
I know get to go on the late bus 3 days a week. Studio, than either L.A.L. extra help with Mr. Sharp for grammar or Veteran's History Project, and then Geometry extra help with Mr. Homa or Veteran's History Project. You see Veteran's History Project alternates days. I doubt that I'm going to be able to do track this year. I'm so depressed.
I'm starting a memoir from Europe and Lost in Translation my third installment in my novella. I'm actually thinking of publishing it... wow... I am sad.
Okay, see you all later... I had Geometry extra help and now I have to go eat dinner out and then go to Girl Scouts... and my homework... YIPPEE... yea right... and the night before my birthday... I don't feel this old... than again... I don't feel this young........