15.00 on 4.30

No more drafting... but other than that... there's nothing much too say... well there is... but you peoples need to ask me in person... its a little risque for the internet....

19.03 on 4.22

I BROKE MY FOOT! and its starting to go numb...
okay thats all I had to say... you can hear my complaint of how that affects me in person

17.59 on 4.19

Quebec was wonderful... the city, the province, everything... except some of the kids I went with... a ton of them were just stuck up, ungrateful, spoiled, rich brats who were just going to complain and be tourists....

My foot is now killing me.... I seriously think that my extra bone popped out... I'm going to the pediatrist on tuesday....

I have so much homework it's not even funny... Everyone says the math is impossible, we read more of Dr.Jekyll and Mr. Hyde then we were told to, we wrote a persuasive essay in Mr. Sharp's class... and who knows what else...

I almost threw myself in the St. Laurence...

I should probably go talk to my family after being gone for four days as I was told to do...

Do me a favor.... if I don't show up in school on Monday, try and search for my grave

21.30 on 4.14

I’m tired of people always going, “Life is gonna be tough, toughen up.” Just when I was trying to come out of the shell I’ve been in for over 6 years… I’m tired of people always going, “Understand Ava, she’s only doing it for attention.” She needs to start to take responsibility, and I’ve tried to understand her for 13 years, it’s time she tries to understand ME for a change… All I am is a stereotype that she tosses around… “You’re not a younger sibling, how could you understand?” GET IT THROUGH YOUR THICK SKULLS PEOPLE (no offense, sorry, I just needed to get that out of my system) I am an oldest sibling, a middle child, and the youngest! I have a brother that is 10 years older than me, that beats me up, that helps me with guys, I know the works… but he’s not always home… then I’m the oldest, I try to help and guide Ava, I try to be someone she can look up to, then I’m the youngest… she treats me like crap, none of you even SEE how she treats me because she wants you to be her friend… She claps in my face, she embarrasses me so that she can look better, she acts like I could never understand what she’s going through when usually I’ve been through much worse, and she puts me down… Its really frustrating… I keep on feeling that I’m in a different boat… No one sees it my way… I’m floating alone in a desolate ocean, and a storm is brewing on the horizon…

18.51 on 4.11

So I had a track meet, Ava was annoying and Ariella was there too... Ran the 100 meter, got 16.64 seconds... Got told for the first time that I'm fast, learned more names, made new friends... etc, etc...

And then after lunch was the worst moment of my life... I broke up with Feng... outside the courtyard door to the B wing... I just whispered "It's over" in his ear.... I'm a horrible girl and person....I felt horrid because he froze and I half ran but really just walked insanelly fast away, leaving him there with tears framing my eyes, and I hid in Mrs Yannetta's classroom... I'll go write a poem I feel so bad....

19.02 on 4.10

Sorry for the delay.... I've just had so much homework... and track takes up so much time.... I knew I should have gone out for throwing.... would got me out of running all this distance....

You know.... everyone really does have a worse life than me.... all I have wrong with my life is my sister, my brother interacting with my mom which is rare now, and guys.... Ariella kinda has that imposing force of Mom, and Sara you said you had it the same way with your Dad.... But I'm in a different boat... no one cares what I do as long as I tried my hardest...

I answer to myself...

And I am never good enough....

16.59 on 4.2

Why don't I have butterflies in my stomach? I HAVE SNAKES! that are HOMICIDAL! Whyyyyyyyy?

I have a ton of homework that I have to do now that I got home from track... I sprinted REALLY good at the end of my mile personally.... but they FORGOT TO TELL ME MY TIME! and it was really windy so I probably sucked any way...

WHY IS NO ONE POSTING?!?