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Why does it feel like my world is crumbling? That I'm losing all my morals? I'm so blessed but why does God decide to screw me up and make everything another try on my conscience? Fine... I'm ready to give up... IS THAT WHAT YOU WANTED GOD?!?!?!?!? Oyg... sometime's I hate and love my world... Maybe it's time to just ride the tide instead of constantly fighting it... That's what I'll do... submit to my nature... I'm giving up... And I'm beyond caring what exactly my nature is... I'm going to go finish reading The Elephant Man by Bernard Pomerance, finish my eight geometry problems, write my novels Wood and Stone, Foremost Queen, and Heir to Hell. And than violin and choir for my parents... Ta ta for now... I'm making the final plunge before death... The one where I realize what is what....