Nightmare

Yes... surprise, surprise... the one day I get to sleep in I get a nightmare! And it was horrible... though Matt was in it! *dance with happiness* I got dropped off the side of an ampitheatre by the leader of a punk group. Matt caught my wrist as I was falling. And the punk dude had the GAUL to ask Matt a question, "Would you marry her if she was about to die?" I was screaming yes in my head... I the idiot who wants anyone to die knowing that the love is that strong... Guess what he said. Yea... he said "No." At that I just gave up, if he wasn't gonna be serious, than why continue. I let go of his hand. And I fell. Fell to the bottom... And I didn't die! Of course they all came rushing to the bottom where the punk guys laughed at my situation... And Matt was all apologetic. But I was dead inside even if my body hadnt stopped. It goes on... but I can't get him saying "No." so bluntly out of my head... I know it would never happen. Even though I was 17 in the dream... It's just... I never date guys unless they are perspectives for a life-long relationship... what is wrong with me? My hopes are to high... *turns into the cornor and starts crying*