We went to the mall yesterday... and you can read it on other blogs so I won't repeat it here... But there are a few things no one bothered to notice... and no one should be insulted by them... we all make mistakes... but at the mall after carla came some of you guys kinda started ignoring me and not walking with me... I felt really left out, which I know sounds lame, but it's true. And I just thought I would say I think it's comical that you think I was suicidal at sara's and then "she got better" just a warning so you can never get fooled by that trick again... I don't just get better in a snap of a finger... I don't bounce back... I hide behind walls and don't show it ever again... Don't fall for that trick again... it's sad that I perfected it that well...
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ok, sorry if this sounds mean and in-sensitive, but i am tired and a little angry right now...but
1) you had been complaining about your feet, i assumed that it still hurt...if you want people to care, don't make it look like something else is wrong
2)we did talk to you. you laughed at us. if you really felt lonely, you could have asked if you could join in. and i quote "Amber, you wanna play?" "no, i'm ok"
3)you can't assume that none of us knew something was wrong. i know people don't "just get better" because i learned how to do the exact.same.thing
4)i know like sucks right now, but it won't get better if you don't put some effort into making it better. yea, so zach moved on, now i don't know what it feels like, but if you hold onto it forever, you will miss new opportunities and you will never be happy.
sorry, still tired today, so that wasn't supposed to be mean
o, just so you know, she was laughing at our singing
fuck what do you think i'm stupid?
btw you weren't the only one getting ignored. There were tons of times when you guys went on without me, following sam or sara. Damn it you would have left me in bath and body works had i not come out. I didn't make a big fuss about that. Or when i saw Mr. and his girlfriend before. I kept silent. You're not the only one who can hide pain.
sorry bout that, but sometimes i just need to let some of it slip out before it ends up destroying me from the inside.
i thought you had gone with sam to find carla....i really didn't know you stayed behind with us, i thought you said you were leaving or something....mr. who? sorry i walked fast....but sometimes i just don't pay attention 'cuz i think about stuff when i walk....
woh, past me is angry
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